Waiting for the Mahatma...

Another 20 days to go at the max and I want them to get over fast. I know that I have a tougher job after that but I'm having all sorts of trouble in my last month. I'm feeling week all the time, I can't sleep well in the night because my thighs ache sleeping on the same side and I have to keep shifting. And my doctor says I should sleep only for half an hour or so in the daytime! It would've been much easier had I been working but now that I'm at home, I'm finding it extremely difficult not to doze off. I think I should've been better prepared with a new stock of books or something but even there, I cannot have my preferred posture of lying down on my belly and reading. And on top of all this, I don't have the company of my mom like I did last time and my son thinks I'm as energetic as ever!

My young maid left yesterday and I've got an elderly one in her place. After I had given my old maid the notice, I realized that I could talk to her like an equal which I never did before. We talked mostly about various recipes but to my surprise, we talked quite a bit. May be it's just that I've never had the time before, being busy either with work or my son or my husband, in that order. But I've decided that after next one year I don't want resident maids anymore. I feel too conscious of their presence and the fact that they don't have the same hobbies as I do, they don't have the same topics that I prefer makes me keep thinking that they must be getting bored. It's all very easy for my aunt to say I should not leave such a 'high paying' job but she doesn't understand the flip sides of it at all. Who the hell wants to spend all her weekends just getting ready for the next week's grind? And with two children! And it's not that one is going to be jobless if one is at home - there are so many things one can do! I want to read lots, want to be a good cook, want to make my son learn music and finally when I get more time, want to join one NGO and try and clean up this damn stinking city.