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She's the cutest person I've ever known.

Unexpected

One of our relatives passed away this morning after lying in coma for a week. He along with his wife and some friends were on a morning walk when a jeep hit them from behind. It seems a lit incense stick fell on the driver's feet and he lost control. Others suffered minor injuries but this guy was the worst hit and died in a Mangalore hospital. Pappa was crying today. He knew the guy from childhood and says he had come up the hard way to become a doctor, the only one in his neighbourhood.

My son alarmed me saying he was glad to have been born a Hindu. As I was preparing myself for a speech on tolerance, he continued, "because it has no Guru and no teachings". I was relieved and left it that. I must probe him sometime why it makes him happy.

Old Ties

I finished 'Indian Summer' and I'm in love with Nehru again. I've been his fan from my childhood and though I regard Gandhi with reverence, Nehru always was someone more human, someone one could emulate. Contrary to all the now-fashionable Nehru bashing, I think he did what best he could, even for Kashmir, under the circumstances. He was a good man with all the right ingredients and I find it fascinating that a rich and spend-thrift man like him could become the simple fellow that he was. Can't someone like him be born again and again?

With regard to Edwina and him, well, I think I can understand. 

Companionship

Rajani has become my latest favourite. I find her quite similar to me, be it interests or the small fears and inhibitions of day-to-day life. I like talking to her but I hope I don't over-depend on it, that generally happens with me. I also know somewhere deep down that this happiness is not going to last but at the moment I feel as if we were twins in some previous birth, only she seems the better one. 

Over the Top

I had a pleasant dream yesterday. It was like a picnic on a hilly area and everybody else was sitting on the slope while someone else and I were running towards the top while picking some things on the way. I couldn't figure who the other person was but it made me happy when I woke up.

Actually the one I saw the other day was very weird. There were two female agents and a guy with them and they were all staying for the night in some big building with pillars. Then one of the ladies came out to the veranda for a stroll and there was an enemy lady agent who followed her. Then after a while, the second good lady came out looking for her friend and got suspicious and took her pistol out when she couldn't find her. Then she came out to the lawn in front of the building and then suddenly the bad one threw the body of her friend from the top on her. I woke up and it was as if I was the second lady... Wonder why I saw it now, especially when I haven't watched any spy movie in a long time.

I met my favourite beggar lady and gave her twenty rupees because I had no change. She was shocked for a second and after that proceeded to caress my face, my head and shoulders, all the while mumbling some blessings. I seemed to have been shocked too; I think all that time I was just standing there, not even uttering a commonplace word.