Trouble in the Paradise

21-Jan-2011
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All is certainly not well at the moment. I have developed some pain around the stitch. I have been careful not to exert pressure during my toilet trips but coughs and sneezes have not been easy to stifle.Also, doctor may not have known it, but laughing out loudly also hurts equally. Especially if my mother opens her treasure trove of stories of childhood, it's not easy to sit quietly. At one point it hurt so badly that I had to ask her to stop telling me anything funny. Besides, there are mosquitoes in the room, however hard I try to deny them an entry. At one point I stretched myself in a hurry to kill one and I think my lower belly got pulled. God knows, now I'm feeling I became overconfident and did a mistake by not leading a subdued life as advised by my mother. The worst part is I never had any problem last time around so I don't know how to deal with this situation at all. I asked my neighbour how her experience was and she said her second one was tougher too; it took around a month to heal completely. That is a bit of a solace because I reckon I have another week for a month!!

But all this is getting on my nerves I guess; I'm becoming easily irritable. The other day my mother and our maid were having a lengthy discussion on her domestic affairs and the baby woke up. I had just then put myself on the bed and thought my mother would come any time but no, their discussion continued. For some reason this got me so frustrated that before long I was sobbing thinking how neglected I am. I had to pull myself together reminding myself of Dr. Raghuveer's remarks - keep yourself in a happy mood if you want to feed your baby well. My nose got blocked after crying and I was curt with my mother when she came in finally. All for such a silly thing!! I wonder if this is called post-natal depression or whatever they call it.