Bringing up Baby

14-Feb-2011
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The first vaccination is over and as expected a tough night it was. The doctor advised us to try out the regular "Easy Five" this time and we were ready to face the fever. But we'd forgotten the pain aspect and the kid really cried badly after 2 hours kicking her thigh. It was so bad that I saw my mother crying after a very long time; I don't think she cried during my son's time. Surprisingly I didn't cry; may be I had finished my quota last time around. She was subdued for the next two days but back to normal now.

My husband is in Delhi for the Ukraine visa. Thankfully it's going to be a week's travel; I've had enough of them. My son is very upset with the thought of not having Baba around for 'so long'. I think the arrival of baby has brought them really close. It's as if my son has realized that it's only Baba who dedicates enough time for him. I'm happy for my husband; he adores his son and this is what he always wanted. I could hear the happiness in his voice when I told him how badly his son cried after he left for the airport.

The kid has started observing things around and the ceiling fan in her room is her favourite. She has started smiling now and we are all jealous of the fan because she smiles the most at that thing. Every morning when she wakes up, she would look at it and smile as if it said good morning to her!!

Many people around me are surprised that we went for the second child, me being a working woman. My colleagues have spoken it out too. I have told them it is because I want my son to have a sibling, a feeling of affection and responsibility towards the sibling and some good memories to have through that relationship. I know that I can speak more freely to my sister than my parents and the memories of our times together in childhood and later have brought many smiles to my face and I hope my son will also be as privileged. But I also think I wanted the baby for my own sake too. I mean, I had started missing holding that tiny thing and that feeling of warmth and love that comes out of you whenever you look into your baby's eyes...it's a wonderful feeling, really.