Shifting the Load

Major camaraderie between the siblings and I suspect it's to do with some change in Rishi's attitude. Anu suddenly announced the other day, "Aayi, ANNa is being very kind to me these days. So I love him the most in this house. Sorry, Aayi!". As if I have a choice. But being her favourite person is not easy so I'm not envying Rishi at all.

Many of our revealing conversations happen while we lie down waiting for her to sleep. Rishi's best friend is ST whose sister LT is in Anu's class. Rishi was thrilled that they would be a pair too but at the moment the two girls are sworn enemies. Anu was all furious that LT was such a bad person and she said the only solace was that she was a girl and she didn't have to marry LT!

The Inseparable Gang

I was telling Anu today that she should be smiling, happy and healthy. She had a ready answer. "I will be happy but on one condition, Aayi. Nobody should make me sad!".

Battered

And almost taking a pledge never to attend a wedding ceremony unless we know in advance where we will stay. We stayed at a pathetic place for two days and I can't believe it's run by my uncle! I don't think he's stepped into any of the rooms in ages. I mean, I hope not because it gives him at least some excuse.

Only one good part of that meaningless stay was that we all got hooked to chess, including Anu.

Roller Coaster Rides

Just when we thought we'd had enough of weddings, we are going to attend one more. But the journey has been a dampner in more ways than one. It's been raining ever since morning and our train is stuck at Mangalore for more than an hour. And as it happens usually, all our eyes turn towards Rishi who has to defend his love for trains yet again...

We are going to visit BR and family at Manipal and the men seem very excited.

Stories

We watched Sairat yesterday and I don't know why I saw M later in my dream. With a long hair! :)

And so many of our heroes and heroines are the byproducts of the generosity and bravery of their friends that I end up thinking more about them...

Madness

I'm in such a precarious state of mind that one wrong step and I'm done for, the most dangerous path in my life. It's funny at times but mostly, worrisome. Sometimes it looks totally like a product of my fertile imagination but if I turn some old pages, it may not be. But, only thing is that it may end and end soon. What will happen then? Will I be relieved? But how will I cope up? As someone said, it's so much harder to make oneself unhappy when one has tasted happiness. I've got to tell myself again and again that it was only temporary anyway. It would've ended surely. No doubt about that.

Energised

Kids have gone to my native place and we are living a most-disorderly life. Before leaving Rishi gave us a strict instruction not to 'enjoy' in his absence. He needn't have worried; I hardly have time for anything anyway. But the last two days just changed it a little bit. We had this Synergy Workshop which actually I didn't want to attend. I mean, testing phase I was getting over on Saturday and it would be blasphemous to go and enjoy myself, right? P wasn't happy too because it was stay-over on Friday and I think like Rishi he was also worried that I would enjoy myself too much. Anyway, somewhere inside I knew I would have fun if I went and I wanted it so I just enrolled myself. And it was worth it really. I love people in general and feel overwhelmed with small happinesses like interacting with new people and I felt very content after 2 days. I sang, danced, played cricket and the only regret is that I didn't explore the place on foot, which I wanted to do.

The best part was SN, a 25 year old girl who I met regularly at restroom in the office but thought I would never interact with. I mean, she seemed exactly like two generations younger and two generations different from me. But we hit it off very well at the workshop and she is one of the cutest persons I've ever met. Then TD too. We had met and spoken before and I knew I liked the girl and it got only reinforced in the workshop. And RCB was a person I never knew though I have been interacting with him for the last 5 years! Of course in their post-workshop comments some people said the same about me too.

Carnival

It's a riot of children in the building. They do nothing but play from morning to night and there are some ten boys. I'm expecting some reprimands from the afternoon-napping senior citizens but surprisingly it's not happened so far. My mother says Rishi comes back an inch taller everytime he goes out to play and it almost seems like that. He's 11 now and 160 centimeters already. As I said before, he's all in love with cricket suddenly, watching matches late in the night, cursing the teams he does not side with and also enjoying his own game. But the boy is also developing a temper than can catch fire at the slightest spark.