Friday, March 30, 2018

The Ant-people

Ants have always been around me. Different kinds through different times. In my grandmothers' places, where the kitchen-cum-dining rooms were mostly dark places - long halls with small or tiny windows - there was no helping them. We used bella generously; it was the favourite accompaniment for breakfast items with children and parents alike(I can't imagine now that we even used it along with Uppittu! Very bad!). Of course the big and small ants loved it too and in the middle of the blissful sweetness of jaggery if we detected a tinge of sourness, we knew over time that it had to be an ant; long drowned or barely alive and swimming just a while ago. Yuck! Kids who had just gotten to learn the virtues of vegetarianism would throw tantrums at this breach of conduct and blame it on elders who had failed to protect their food. The defense was not altogether convincing. The only thing they said was that ants were good for our eyes! This was dubious because for all their prowess, I hadn't seen anyone picking them up from the floor and eating them and they were good only if they were found in food? So I guess we did what we could; if the ant had already gone down the throat by the time you realized it, calm your stomach and hope that your eyes were better for it and if still on the tongue, throw it out.


On a sudden whim, I asked P about his childhood ants and he says his grandparents told him the same!


Tuesday, March 27, 2018

Setting the Sun

To the dear boy who's just another nobody to us today.


I think Peter O'Toole should've been the best actor in 1962. The jury seem to have given it to Gregory Peck just because they were in love with Atticus Finch.

Sunday, March 25, 2018

Losing the Sheen

What were Steven Smith and Co. thinking, really? The collective stupidity of these smart cricketers is equally fascinating, in a way. 

Function of Time

The best part about youth is the enormous faith you have in life. I wonder how and why fifteen years of ordinary existence should change that.


On the occasion of Rama Navami, somebody had written on Twitter that Rama had lived 1.2 million years ago. My first thought was that then her Rama should look much worse than the handsome image I've cultivated!

Friday, March 23, 2018

Making Space

I cleared up so much junk today that the neighbours can be pardoned if they thought we were moving. But the surprising part is I don't seem to have created the much-needed space. It's like something else just flowed in into that place. Anyway, now I'm sort of getting addicted to this activity. Let's see how it goes.



Today morning someone unknown pinged me on the communicator. It seems she had a colleague with the same name in her previous company and wanted to check out. I said I was sorry to disappoint her and was all set to close it out when she asked me if I was from Mangalore, because of my name, of course. I told her the place and she was like vow! I'm from there too! It kept getting more interesting from there and finally we realised that she was V's classmate! But I never knew her. I liked her anyway, because I like people who reach out on an instinct like that. 

Wednesday, March 21, 2018

Sizing the Unknown

I met my gynecologist today. She couldn't recollect my name but remembered what she'd treated me for. That was nice.

Considering that so many Hindus are fearful that Muslims will outnumber them soon, - though nobody knows the deadline - I think they will vote the ruling party back, based on that fear alone, if people feed on that. Because they somehow seem to think that this party can do something to stop that. I'm not getting a clear picture of the modus operandi, though.

Every time I get upset with a Muslim for having a family of more than two children, I think of my own relatives who have similar numbers, may be precisely for the same reasons too. I don't have comparative statistics and I look for data in my office but then realise that my workplace has too few Muslims. My own team has one out of fifty.

Monday, March 19, 2018

The Dream Reality

I wish my dreams were more realistic. At least I would've been able to talk about them to the people involved without feeling awkward.

Saturday, March 17, 2018

Pot Pourri

L's birthday today. One of my worst fears is forgetting V's and her birthdays.

My mother brings a lot of food when she comes and takes away some of the self-esteem that I build up in the months between her visits.

We use the discarded water from our purifier for domestic purposes. It's cumbersome because we don't have an integrated system for it but now we're in the 8th year of it and have got used to it. The amount if waste water it generates is substantial and I think it's time to spread the word.


Thursday, March 15, 2018

Driving it Home

Sometimes driving is about being in the driver's seat in your life. So right now I think what I need is not so much of mobility. I need the space, I need the freedom. That is not today.

It rained today and coupled with my washed and crowded hair, it's very very hot.


It's a pity that apartment balconies are only places to dry your clothes. 

Tuesday, March 13, 2018

Conditioning

Three 7th standard students from Rishi's school ran away - went by train - to Hyderabad to avoid exams it seems and my first thought was, "Thank God, they didn't kill others like the kids in Delhi and Lucknow did!". This is pathetic!

Our guys are being pulled back from onsite though the war is still on and I told my boss it looked like the beginning of the end. He said let's be hopeful. In fact I'm more curious than hopeful now. 

Saturday, March 10, 2018

The Weekend Pilgrim

Open Day at IISc. and though P had just reached home from Dubai yesterday, everyone was enthusiastic. It is turning out to be more of a pilgrimage than anything else yet attractive nevertheless. I'm more of a standby for Anu who only wants to climb the trees and sit quietly on them for long and I don't mind it. It feels like an atonement for a year of missed opportunities. But when will I get rid of that feeling?




Thursday, March 8, 2018

Pleasing the Crowd

My mother complains often that V and I hardly visit the native place. I do love my place but it's just that my parents were here themselves till recent times so obviously there was no point. I was discussing my summer plans with her and she said, "Ask V and her husband when they are coming here. God knows when they visited last!". I said that was natural but now V would obviously have more reasons to visit. My mother continued, "People around must be thinking they are divorced or something!"! I thought she was joking and I laughed. She didn't. She sounded genuinely worried and it made me worry about her. She takes people just too seriously.

Anyway, V and her husband gave them a surprise visit over the weekend and it seems people around weren't thrilled with her short hair. I think she should've gone without her husband and given them better fodder.



Sometimes life does not give you too many opportunities to procrastinate. It contrives to take the decision out of your hands. I'm talking about cleaning the fridge here.

Monday, March 5, 2018

Sensitivity

When these people send advertisements like "A woman as fresh as spring and fierce as summer deserves..." indiscriminately, they just don't realise the impact they can have on the impressionable middle-aged minds...


Saturday, March 3, 2018

Touchy Feely

Coming to think of it, I had never watched "I Love You" song of Mr. India fully before. I remember watching the movie with a lot of fanfare in a neighbour's house but that was an age where I was 'sensitive' to certain kind of romance - only the subtle and unsaid ones were permitted. So when Gajumaava left a cassette of Hindi songs in my grandmother's place which had "Nahin Nahin Abhi Nahin Abhi Karo Intezaar...", I was baffled by his intentions in putting such a vulgar song in the earshot of his nephews and nieces. It continued till my Engineering first year where I sat through some of the scenes of The Specialist(it was screened in our open-air theatre) with my eyes closed and got laughed at by my friends.

After Sridevi passed away, I watched Mr. India again and fully but it was funny watching the song in a way. I mean, there is Sridevi going bonkers in the rain and doing all sorts of things with an invisible man and look at Anil Kapoor, whenever he's available! For all practical purposes, he can't see her too! He mouths those endearments as if he's addressing his gang of children. I don't know, it felt as if the director thought any more sensuality would be dangerous to everybody's health or something.

Anyway, in the past few days Anu has been down with viral fever and it's Mr. India's other song, the parody one, that has helped me immensely. She was very weak but the sight and sound of this song would put energy into her and I somehow managed to keep her well-fed. Grateful, really.