The Rise and Fall...

These days every minute of the day is filled with so many to-dos that the moment mind spots a gap, it's quick to try and make an escape. Two days of intense work and today the house was empty when everybody except me went swimming. I still hadn't finished cooking but my first instinct was to just roll on the bed with The Rise and Fall of the Third Reich, next look for some chocolates to eat. Of course I recovered sense in a brief while to return to the kitchen.

Love Jihad is quite similar to the anti-semitic propaganda used by Hitler and others in early 1900s...'Women's honour' to be exploited in more ways than one.

Laughing Budhdha

I now kind of appreciate why our old wise men said we should leave desires. In fact, desire is a very big word. I'm only talking of wishes here. 

Bordering on Lunacy

Today was one of the craziest days. If this is the kind of working-from-home I'm going to do for the next one month, I won't be fit to do any work by the end of it.

Elloo Salladavaru

I have been living in Bangalore for so long now yet I don't want to belong there. In my mind it's always some other place, may be Modankap, may be Takli ...But when I come to Modankap, I'm also acutely aware that I'm somewhat a stranger there, a once-in-a-year phenomenon and eveything seems new everytime. At times I long for the familiar comforts of our flat in Bangalore...

Spoil-sport

There is no better sense of peace than sitting on the terrace at my place and my husband is spoiling it currently with lot of work-related cacophony. Coming with him here is no more a pleasure, honestly. One has to continuously pray that not even a small hiccup raises its head and where does one have such luck? I don't know when I last had mine. 

Waiting to Swing

One of the side-effects of my medicine is supposed to be mood swings. I was not sure what that would entail but had forewarned my husband, just in case. It's been 6 days but I don't think I've had any swing so far. Waiting and watching right now. 

Rolling Back

Just when I was about to say "Nothing ever happens here!" like Dina, life decided to throw a fistful of events my way. First, after five years of slogging here, my parents decided to move back to their place for good. Just when I thought I was going to the free bird, living my life the way I always wanted - which I cannot explain because it's too chaotic - things went haywire. I had to have a scan because I had missed my periods - initial thought was if I had become pregnant again, which was not a very scary thought for me but alas - and it turns out that I have some cyst in my ovary which is not a regular one. To top the whole thing, my doctor asked me to get a CA125 test done and my whole world became numb when it threw up 61. Since then I've recovered enough not to treat myself as a normal creature, with the help of some medication.

Last but not the least, I joined the WhatsApp band and in that, our Primary School group last week. Of course it's been euphoric fun but now I know that it happened at a very wrong time. I mean, I had thought by the time kids come back, they would see a different house, all shiny and neat....Tomorrow I'll go to fetch them but all I've done in the interim is checking my messages some 100 times in a day and reading hundreds of messages. So now there is going to be a curb, as usual. And also, I'm surprised that I'm still a little wary when it comes to talking of M in a forum...I don't know, reminded me of the time I cried in 7th standard.